To make it short: I’m back home from Hungary and I’d like to share with you both – my experiences from there and to check how my holiday’s resolutions are going (back- or forward). But before I do that, I would like to discuss today a way more important topic that came to my mind while being in Hungary. Let’s start!
Obviously, being in an international environment for the whole month not only allows you to reach the languages you learn, but in my case, gives you the feeling of unity no matter what is your and their nationality. Now, here it comes – the key word, nationality.
What I wrote in the tittle is actually a question to any of you to think about your nationality. But I don’t mean you to name it – Polish, Hungarian, Spanish, German. What I would like you to think of is that – what is nationality for you?
This question was going here and there in my head for a long time. Now it evolved and I can fully give you a description of this thing.
First of all, I thought: I’m Polish, but not a patriot. I don’t care about this country in a traditional sense. This feeling kept me company for a long time and just recently it changed to: I don’t feel Polish. I’m not sure if that’s something unimaginable for you or rather pretty obvious to understand, but I don’t. It doesn’t mean I’m ashamed to say I’m Polish – the point is I don’t really like to use a nationality to descirbe/introduce myself.
This is why: every nationality brings a set of stereotypes and personal experience connected to this country (this is: generalizing about the characteristic of the whole nation based on only one person/event/experience). I don’t need this to talk to people and they don’t need it to see what kind of person I am and wether they will like me or not. So after saying I don’t feel Polish, I felt something like: I don’t have a nationality and then, more flexibly, I present this nationality, which language I speak. If I talk to people in Spanish, I feel more like them, maybe not having the same problems as inside the country for example, but I try to identify with them to understand them better.
Today, what I feel is: I don’t need nationality to label myself, to feel better or worse.
What I know about Poland is that: I don’t suit to this country, to its traditions, mentality, alcohol-drinking thing, I feel no connection. This is the reason why I travel. This is why I think home is where I am and when I left a piece of myself, but in general I consider the whole world my home, not only one country.